Today was another beautiful Fall day. I wanted my husband and children to see the beauty I saw yesterday in the park. We went again to the park today and my children rode their bikes. It was a nice day for all of us. The sun was warm, the air was cool. We had a very nice time.
After spending time at the park and seeing God's beauty, we went to the coffee shop. It was a big treat for my kids to go to the coffee shop, they had fun. It was really busy there today and the only table that was left to sit at was a very small one, kid size. So the four of sat around the small kid sized table in the middle of the coffee shop and ate our scones and drank our coffee/beverages. We had good conversation at our small table.
My son needed a haircut so we headed to the mall. While he was sitting in the chair getting his hair cut, my daughter and I were looking at jewelry and clothes.
I have noticed a shift within me. When I woke up this morning, I spent a lot of time talking with my husband, and crying. I've been crying a lot lately. I'm not crying just because of the losses in my life, but I think because I know there are things that are changing too. In my ministry, my relationships, my family. There are adjustments to make, and God is asking me to move into different areas and do other things, and it's scary. I've had a lot of time to think about it as I've been scaling back because of the pain my body has been experiencing. My focus, for now, is more on days in the park, and restful naps. I move slow, and have lots of time to think about what God is saying, and how I can grow from this experience, and where the blessings are in all of this! He has allowed me to see depression, sadness, joy, pain, loss, hope, courage, boldness, fear, desperateness, and love. They all race around in my heart.
Today, with my family, and all the lovely colors in the park, He again reminded me that even with all those feelings, when I feel so weak and alone, He is strong. He is going to continue to be with me and walk beside me and show me the way I need to go. All through this day I kept asking Him to Say That Again to me, and I would hear Him say it in so many wonderful ways. I don't know exactly what lies ahead, but I do know He won't leave me!
My son needed a haircut so we headed to the mall. While he was sitting in the chair getting his hair cut, my daughter and I were looking at jewelry and clothes.
I have noticed a shift within me. When I woke up this morning, I spent a lot of time talking with my husband, and crying. I've been crying a lot lately. I'm not crying just because of the losses in my life, but I think because I know there are things that are changing too. In my ministry, my relationships, my family. There are adjustments to make, and God is asking me to move into different areas and do other things, and it's scary. I've had a lot of time to think about it as I've been scaling back because of the pain my body has been experiencing. My focus, for now, is more on days in the park, and restful naps. I move slow, and have lots of time to think about what God is saying, and how I can grow from this experience, and where the blessings are in all of this! He has allowed me to see depression, sadness, joy, pain, loss, hope, courage, boldness, fear, desperateness, and love. They all race around in my heart.
Today, with my family, and all the lovely colors in the park, He again reminded me that even with all those feelings, when I feel so weak and alone, He is strong. He is going to continue to be with me and walk beside me and show me the way I need to go. All through this day I kept asking Him to Say That Again to me, and I would hear Him say it in so many wonderful ways. I don't know exactly what lies ahead, but I do know He won't leave me!
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