Wednesday, September 18, 2013

The Mercy Song

I woke up early, as I normally do, and began to reflect on my day yesterday. My night was long again with a restless painful sleep. When I did wake up this morning I listened to Joy in the Journey by Michael Card, and it brought a smile to my face as I was gently reminded that there is light, wonder, and wildness to life when I seek it.
Yesterday, I finished up a group that I've been meeting with now for months. We made it through book one and book two in the Genesis Process, and it was good! I also met with other women on an individual basis and another group. It was a good day.
A friend of mine sent me pictures of pallets from far away with a little note saying she had found me lots of pallets!



I like the flower beside the pallets!
The doctor I am seeing is discussing my surgery with our insurance. He is sending in an appeal. In the meantime, I get to wait. I get to practice Joy in my Journey. I get to look for the wonder, the light, and the wildness in my life, even when I am in pain.
This morning, I decided to look for more songs. A friend of mine likes Amy Grant. So I was scrolling through some of Amy Grants songs from way back, and I came across the song How Mercy Looks From Here.
"When you face your greatest fear losing all that you hold near, open up your eyes my dear, oh how mercy looks from here."
The song is beautiful, and it really hit the spot for me, because it tied in to a book I'm reading. In my book, I read three questions last night:
1. What in my life, if taken away, would alter my value or identity?
2. What causes an unhealthy change of attitude, personality, or focus when "it" becomes threatened?
3. What is the thing outside of God that you put everything else on hold for ?

God has allowed me to have some pain in my life, and with this pain a few fears have crept in. What if it never goes away? What if I have to give up my way of life because of this? How am I going to learn to manage this? There's a lot of questions, and a lot of changes. His mercy has got to be my sustaining power.
So, today, I'm calling out for mercy all day long. And, I'm going to listen to Amy Grant! And, I asked my friend if she planned to bring all those pallets home with her, and she said I should send her a shrinking ray gun and she'd see what she could fit into her suitcase.  So I'm working on that :)
Jesus, You are the ultimate Mercy Song, sing over me today, and I'm asking You to Say That Again!


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