The Anxiety

This is a beautiful time of year, but there is also something about it that creates an anxiety in me.  With each year; I have noticed it getting a little more intense, consequently, it is harder for me to enjoy the beauty of Fall.  I start to notice the anxiety creep in around September, and it stays until about December, October being the worst of it. I've made connections like Halloween not being my favorite holiday, and also not particularly fond of connecting this time of year with church functions. Isn't it fascinating how the brain, my brain, can store so much information, yet I am not totally sure what all that information is?
It only makes sense that God would lead me to Psalms 139 this morning, the search me verse popped right out: " Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me and know my anxious thoughts; and see if there be any hurtful way in me, and lead me in the everlasting way". Psalms 139: 23,24
I know that He can search my heart and bring to my mind the root of my anxious thoughts. He can show me what it is that hurts me, and lead me on a path of recovery and health. I know this, because He has done it over and over again. I am a living testament to God's healing power and miracles. It's just a matter of His timing and His will for me.
So, Jesus, I surrender these anxious thoughts to You.  I surrender this time of year to You. And, I trust You will lead me in the everlasting way. Say That Again, Jesus, You will lead me!