The Home

I took my daughter to soccer practice yesterday, and she did great. "She's the best on the team" her coach boasted! I'm good with that. She is very athletic and it seems to just come as natural to her as walking and talking. She runs around the field kicking the ball with a huge smile on her face. She's not afraid to get right in there and take the ball away from her opponent and fight for her team; it's like she's been playing soccer for all her six years!
She approaches most of life this way, fearless. She fights. As she was moving her little legs across the field, the Spirit reminded me of something I needed to do. Another step, and I felt fear. "Jesus, this is old fear, and I don't like it. I don't want to do this." But, the thought continued and The Spirit of God kept prompting. It was such a small thing, really, but my fear was that I would not receive a response, consequently, I would then have to deal with the old feelings of rejection, being invisible (again), pain, hurt, etc... "Why do you keep asking me to to this, Jesus? What am I not getting?"
This morning while reading in my Bible I read this in Psalms 91:5-9, "Fear nothing--not wild wolves in the night, not lying arrows in the day. Not disease that prowls through darkness, not disaster that erupts at high noon. Even though others succumb all around, drop like flies right and left, no harm will even graze you. You'll stand untouched, watch it all from a distance, watch the wicked turn into corpses. Yes, because GOD'S your refuge, the High God your very own home."
Ok, so obviously, God continues to bring up the things I fear to say to me that I do not need to fear them. It is only Him that I should fear, and until then, He will continue to show me the areas that need to be demolished and dismissed. The old fears, new fears need to be given over to Him, because He is my very own Home.
Jesus, thank you for showing me yet again who you are. Say That Again, You are my very own Home!